Please take good care in case I don't make it. Know that it will be okay. Though it came to an abrupt and unexpected ending, know that I went in hopes for a better place beyond what this life had to offer me. I will miss you dearly, as I would hope and wish you'd miss me too. I wish I could've stuck around longer, because there was so much that I still yearned to do. But it seems as such that it just wasn't my time. So maybe I'll catch you in another galaxy far from here on another timeline. Know that I'll be waiting for you, just as you were always so patient with me. I know it won't be easy but just keep pushing on through. I love you more than my words could ever express though I wasn't the best at showing it. I just hope the smiles I brought to you always felt worth it. And I know our time together may feel as if it was too short, I do agree. Just don't let all our good times become just sad memories. I want you to remember me long after I'm gone. So let my voice ring loud and echo on so you don't forget my sound. I hope I left a deep mark as you've left a big one with me. Though I'm traveling a great distance I promise to always have the memories with me. Please keep them with you until we meet again. I love you forever, and forever has no end. ♥️ I'll see you next time, Be careful.
You know what. I don't even know what to say. I feel lost. I feel unhappy. I want to change but have no ambition to do so. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what to feel. I've wanted to write something for months now, but I could never find the words. Hell, I don't even know if this is what I wanted to say, or how I wanted to come back to this page. I graduated. I'm 20 now, I can't even remember how long it's been. My last post says 2019, but it feels like yesterday. I planned how I would post the last piece and never come back. How I would never look back. Now, look at me. Pitiful. I want to get something off my chest, but I don't know what. I want to talk to anyone about everything. -How well I've been doing -How bad I've been feeling -Who I want to become -What I want to do for the rest of my life But nobody will listen or understand what I am trying to say so I can be heard... ...It's not like I give them the chance to anyway... I don't feel motivated, just stuck in a never-ending cycle that is driving me insane and making me tired. I want to go home. But I don't know where home is. I wish I had somewhere I felt safe and comfortable enough to call home. No one understands. So there is never any use in me trying to explain. No one hears me. No one knows how I feel. No one can understand how I think. I'm tired. But I think even that has become an excuse to hide that I am depressed and unmotivated, that I am stuck in a constant war with myself, and I can't win. I'll never win. No one hears me. In a room full of people, I'm by myself screaming for help, begging anyone to help me out of this pit I've tried countless times to claw my way out of its grasp, but it's hopeless. I'm a lost cause and I know I am. I always have been. I won't reach out, so I won't find help. I won't let anyone close enough to know how much pain I've been bearing, so I'll just suffer in silence, hiding behind that same damn smile and that goofy laugh that everyone depends on and expects from me. I'm so tired. I wish I could say there are better days but every good day is followed by something disastrous. Be careful.
Lost in thought
Here in spirit
Wandering aimlessly
No real meaning behind what I'm doing
I want to disappear
Without causing problems
I want someone to hear
Without causing despair
I feel like an issue
Everywhere I go
I wonder if really anyone cares
I'm sorry to say this
But soon I'll be gone
A whirl in the wind
A real minor flaw
I want them to know
That I really tried
That's why it hurts me
To say goodbye
I'll see you another time
Just maybe not here
But I will still love you
I'm sorry I'm not there.
Good Job You Ruined it. by SicklyEmo28, literature
Literature
Good Job You Ruined it.
You have a real issue.
You're too clingy.
Why do you even feel the way you do.
It's obvious nothing is goin to happen.
You ruin everything you touch.
You'll mess this up too.
You're such a fuck up.
A freak.
No wonder no one wants to be around you.
You're replaceable.
You know this.
No on cares about you.
I fucking hate you.
I fucking hate you...
...God I hate myself...
I'm so stupid.
Why do I mess everything up...
Why do I feel how I do..
You're such a loser.
You're stupid and ignorant.
I hate this feeling.
I hate it.
I hate it.
I hate it.
Why.
Why do you have a problem with me.
Why does it matter if I am attached to her.
Why does it matter so much to you.
Why do you care so much.
She's my older sister.
She's the only safe haven I have.
She's the only safe haven I've ever truly had.
Why is that such a problem to you that I care so much about her.
I'm not hurting you.
But it is such a big issue to you.
I'm so scared.
With the choices she makes.
The things she does because other people hurt her or stress her out.
I'm so fucking scared.
I don't want to lose her.
I don't want her to ever be of ill health.
I don't want her life to ever be at risk.
She's my everything.
As sad as tha
Lost in thought
Here in spirit
Wandering aimlessly
No real meaning behind what I'm doing
I want to disappear
Without causing problems
I want someone to hear
Without causing despair
I feel like an issue
Everywhere I go
I wonder if really anyone cares
I'm sorry to say this
But soon I'll be gone
A whirl in the wind
A real minor flaw
I want them to know
That I really tried
That's why it hurts me
To say goodbye
I'll see you another time
Just maybe not here
But I will still love you
I'm sorry I'm not there.
Good Job You Ruined it. by SicklyEmo28, literature
Literature
Good Job You Ruined it.
You have a real issue.
You're too clingy.
Why do you even feel the way you do.
It's obvious nothing is goin to happen.
You ruin everything you touch.
You'll mess this up too.
You're such a fuck up.
A freak.
No wonder no one wants to be around you.
You're replaceable.
You know this.
No on cares about you.
I fucking hate you.
I fucking hate you...
...God I hate myself...
I'm so stupid.
Why do I mess everything up...
Why do I feel how I do..
You're such a loser.
You're stupid and ignorant.
I hate this feeling.
I hate it.
I hate it.
I hate it.
Why.
Why do you have a problem with me.
Why does it matter if I am attached to her.
Why does it matter so much to you.
Why do you care so much.
She's my older sister.
She's the only safe haven I have.
She's the only safe haven I've ever truly had.
Why is that such a problem to you that I care so much about her.
I'm not hurting you.
But it is such a big issue to you.
I'm so scared.
With the choices she makes.
The things she does because other people hurt her or stress her out.
I'm so fucking scared.
I don't want to lose her.
I don't want her to ever be of ill health.
I don't want her life to ever be at risk.
She's my everything.
As sad as tha
Have you ever had something you’ve wanted to tell someone. Cause I have some, but this is just one of them. What I want to say to a special friend.
I never know how to actually talk to you. I want to tell you about my emotions but every time I just doubt myself. I just think of how I’ll just bring you down with me and make you sad. Everyday I feel like shit even if it’s just for a minute or even the whole day. I see you and all I want to do is hug you, not for me but to help you because there I times when I see you, and look sad. It hurts me. Knowing I’ll never be able to fix that no matter how hard I try. It wouldn
I just want to be alone...
Nothing seems to be turning out right.
I want to text...them...but I can't.
I want to talk to them.
But I can't bring myself to.
I don't know if I am more scared to face them or scared to give into the fact that things are different.
I am making things difficult.
Why won't I just talk to them.
Why am I so afraid to try.
This is so stupid.
I open up the messages just to stare at the lack of effort.
Making myself depressed because I'm making myself be alone.
No one to talk to.
That's a lie.
I have people to talk to.
I don't talk to them.
I...hate this.
Try harder.
Be stronger.
Face your fears.
You can do it if you act